I want to travel, but really can't afford the expense...

It's the most stupid decision to buy a car while I only have enough money to get by each month. $340 some dollars really took up a good chunk of my income right now. I don't use my car much here anyways..mainly to work. It's retarded that I can't take vacation to do some random travel because of my limited financial resource. Geezz..that's very embarrassing when people ask me why don't I take my vacation...Should I answer I don't have spare money?! There're so many places I haven't been to after almost 8 years of staying in the USA. It's always about money...I wish life could be easier to live without it. It doesn't work that way...I better stop dreaming again. The more I stay at home, the less money I would possibly spend. It's as simple as that. It's kind of sad even I know I'd be leaving this place soon. I pretty much only stayed in IL after I came to America.

Everyone's life is different. It's just that I'm not as fortunate as others. I want to say I'm depressed ,lost and living without a goal..I'm not a superman, batman or genius. I'm too stupid to figure stuff out. How do I expect a captain find the way while there's no telecommunication, no direction, and weather is really bad out on the sea?! Typical example of strand. That describes the situation I'm in.